July 9, 2010

This is a video i took at EDC 2010. i was taking more so i could remember the huge crowd rather than to hear the music. it was completely full of people. 

so i havent written for a few days because ive been staying at my cousins house while i rent my room out for $70 / night on Airbnb.com. i have to save money cause my Ben is going to Italy and i wont have income for a month, and after that month i need to go to Burning Man. I havent bough my tickets for that yet. Today i went on a private tour of Paramount Studios.

It was pretty boring. We basically found out that Lucille Ball was a shrewd business woman that was a workaholic. She recreated her backyard and vacation homes on the studio property so that when the world accused her of not being a good mother she could take publicity shots with her kids in the pretend backyard and say she was at home with them. She was the first woman ever to run a studio (which she ran by herself for 7 years- highest gross made those years of any studio). We also learned that the Hollywood sign has been revamped to stay "Holywood" when the pope visited and to "Hollyweed" by some pranksters. 

Other than that, ive been really depressed lately. Im ready for it to go away. its like i dont have choices in life and i can easily see myself becoming or staying nothing. just in the blink of an eye i will be forty and nothing to show for it. John says i need to stay in the moment but as Fred McDowell says "when the lord gets ready, you got to move"



Im fucked. i havent done ANYTHING with my life. it seems like i keep waiting for something to HAPPEN TO ME. i want to move. anyway i dont have enough energy to even write about it so i guess imma stop right here.

The positive of the day was going to my sisters house and having my niece Maya "dress me up like a GIrl:)" hehe